Desperately Seeking...

What do you desire most in life?  A new car, unending wealth, marriage, children… the list can go on and on.  Why does it seem that the people who most want something with all of their being, many times never gain what it is that they are so desperately seeking?  Or are they really gaining what their Spirit is seeking, through the inability to gain what they are seeking?

In Buddhism it is thought that removing the desire for basically everything is the path to true enlightenment.  In the “Law of Attraction” thinking it is thought that focusing on your desires is ok, and that doing it in a positive sense you will most certainly gain those “things” that you desire.  It seems that in every arena of thought there are some good/bad dichotomy permeating that feeling that we call “desire”.  I have struggled with this many times because I do strongly desire many different things.  All of these “things” are not just earthly possessions, but are also experiences that I desire to have.  The emotion desire is so strong in myself, that I feel it in my heart, in my chakras, and most importantly in my Spirit.  My Spirit has longed for many things in my lifetime…children, a strong marriage, successful career, great friends etc…  and many of these I have achieved.  When I longed for these, my Spirit felt as though there was something I was ‘destined’ to do, and really nothing could stop my determination.  Yet I have struggled with this underlying guilt that I should not desire anything.  If I am truly “enlightened” then the desire should be gone and I would be content with sleeping in a room, alone, with little or no possessions and meditating all day.  At times this does sound pretty fantastic, but in my heart it feels as though my life and time on this planet were meant for more.

Already this piece has opened a proverbial ‘can of worms’ for me Spiritually.  My mind is spinning with the reasons why we feel this way, and where did all of this come from? I have a feeling that this is all going to progress with great intensity.  This feels as though it is a long-standing thought process that has completed its cycle and now is the time to bring it forth into our everyday consciousness and transmute the energy with the violet sacred flame. It seems that for generations, lifetimes, and for eons we (especially we women I feel) have been separated from our selves, from our desires and therefore our Spirit. Reconnect with your desires, feel the fantastic rush deep in your soul, and Do Not Feel Guilty. Can I say that again? DO NOT FEEL GUILTY. Release your desires, and free your Spirit to re-engage your fire for life and for living. Allow yourself to feel Spirit’s passion for living this human life here on Earth. Desire all you want…desire everything you want and feel free to feel whatever you feel. If these feelings are uplifting and feed your soul, keep on. If these feelings ‘make you sick’ or feel negative, then explore why you may feel this way and then RELEASE.
Spirit is urging me to tie this up, and leave you to your exploration. I end this with love and tidal waves of light to you. My hope is that you find your way as peacefully and lovingly as possible. Be kind with yourself, for it really is the only way to be kind to others. You are beautiful and I love you.
XOXO
Gina